I'm tired of lying. Tired of trying to guard myself. Tired of it all. I'll let it all out, because people here are much nicer then the reality of the outside world, where if you wear your heart on your sleeve, you only get hurt. It doesn't work how they tell you, and infact, life is never fair, never has been, and never will be. I wear lots of black and then normal colors. I get crap like "OMG r u emo?" or "Omg r u goth?" (Chatspeak used to emphisize stupidity factor of what they ask.) ANother thing, I'm into metaphysical stuff. I like meditating and get shit about it at school, making me angrier then normal. I'm more of an empath then I'd like and try to shove it out and the emotions get stronger and more intense. I can feel energy and I'm good with heat energy. My friend, Erin, and I practice with our energy stuff. My empathy is a different story. My science teacher, for example, is always irritated and I end up with the energy. I yell at my best friend and she's about to split from me. I have never had a friend this close to me. I know I sound like I need a therapist, but they never help. What I'm dealing with may as well end me up institutionalized, and I dont want that. I'm just stuck in a situation that isn't getting better and is getting worse.
May update later but whatever. Going to go meditate and let all the anger out that way.